Imagine!

Couch Potato

Mon, 21 Jan 2008 07:01:37 GMT

Oh man. I've decided to teach myself how to skateboard. =D

Me and my mom went down to the U District on Saturday. The skateboard shop had moved to Capitol Hill though. But she said she'll take me next weekend. And I went to the University book store and it was a lot of fun. And we ate at this Japanese bakery and I had bubble tea for the first time.

My birth control pills are dumb. They aren't making my PMS any better. My mom said to wait like one more month and then we could go back to the doctor. I'm getting really sick of crying over losing my tights because I'm about to go on my period. It's a bitch.

Lately I feel like a lump. I have like no hobbies and no idea what I want to do in life. I feel like I'm not good at anything and I just feel so lost. So I'm going to try harder to find something. I'm not sure what yet, but I have to be good at something, right?

A couple of my grades have dropped. Which freaking sucks because it's so close to the end of the semester. I hope I can bring them up. I'm sure I can. I'm just so lazy. I hate it. I wait to the last minute for everything. I always tell myself I'll do my homework right after school, or after I have a snack, or something, but I never do. And today I told myself I'd start on it a bit, and do my chores but I didn't. I never keep any of the commitments that I give myself. And I guess I'm not sure how to, as lame of an excuse as that is. I'm gonna try to try though. It's so much easier said than done, eh? But I guess anything in life worth doing takes work.

Tomorrow I'm going to hang out with my friends Bethany and Kelsey at Bethany's house. It should be fun.

I'm going to look for a new job I've decided. I'm just only getting five to six hours a week and it doesn't even seem worth it anymore.

Brandon quit. Friday was his last day. I slipped a note in his pocket, but he never texted me about it. I wonder what he thought about it. I deleted him out of my phone book.

Ciao.

Because I was told to. =X

Sat, 05 Jan 2008 21:57:29 GMT

Not too much to say.

My aunt Barb died and I'm going to her funeral on Sunday, but I didn't know her too well. It's still sad though. Dx

Yesterday during Biology, the guy who sits across from me, Kylean (Kai-len) was wearing one of thos funny hats that look like this:

And I told him I wanted one and he let me wear it for class. They are sooooo warm. Oh man. When I took it off at the end of class, I touched the top of my head and it felt like I had just pointed a heated-up blow dryer at it. It was amazing. I want it. xD

I'll talk about Christmas.
I got a lot of really good stuff for Christmas.
It was fun.
Bea got me makeup lessons. xD I love them.
My mom got me a bunch of stuff like CDs, video games and books.
My sister and her boyfriend got me a Tempur-Pedic pillow that's really comfy. ^-^
And I got a lot of other things, too.

My New Year's was really boring. I was going to go to Bea's neighbors house for a party, but I was so tired, so me and my mom just went to Red Robin and the Basking Robin. (Huh.)

Okayso.
That's my post.

I do believe that I do not know which way is up...

Mon, 31 Dec 2007 09:30:46 GMT

'Sup people of the livejournaling world? I have returned-ed.

Not really. I'm just really bored at 1:24 AM on a Sunday (now Monday) night/morning.

But I don't really know what to say.

I tried pot for the first time the night before last. It just made me really calm. And me, Bea and Amanda went driving and I drove (oh noes!) but it went good. I don't think I'll ever smoke it again, my curiosity just got too big.

But it didn't kill me.

I had a great Christmas, thanks for asking. I got a lot of movies and books and CDs and the like.

I really like working at Game Stop. Not sure if they'll keep me on, but I hope so. I know that the two seasonal people are being fired, but I'm not sure if my manager is going to get rid of more people.

I hope not.

Oh, and the twenty year old that asked me out is giving me the cold shoulder. Made me cry. I hope it's just because he's stressed. I quite like him, I think. Or maybe he just made me feel special. I'm not sure. But I work with him alone for a while in a couple of days, so maybe I'll talk to him about it then.
Because he's supposed to teach me how to play World of Warcraft.
Ah, well.

No one's going to read this, but like I said, I'm bored. And I haven't written in here for ages.

Gwen Stefani wishes she was asian.
~~But who can blame her?~~

I don't really have much more to say, but I wish I did. I think soon I'll make some lists. Like New Year's resolutions or something. I dunno. I just want to do something. I feel really restless tonight and I know if I go lay in bed that I won't be able to go to sleep at all.

Hope you had a good holiday.

!sdrawkcab gniklat ma I

Mon, 23 Jul 2007 01:55:16 GMT

Man. Leavenworth was so much fun! I had such a great time. =D I actually bought a dress. It's really cute. ^w^ On the 26th I'm going to Oregon for a family vacation, but Sarah gets to go with me, so it should be fun.

Um.

I'm bored.

Forever

Thu, 28 Jun 2007 06:05:28 GMT

No. I haven't posted in forever. Now get over it. D:<

This year is intense. I basically made a whole new group of friends. I don't really hang out with anyone that I did last year. Like Eric said "I guess that's high school." I guess so, eh? I don't know. I just kind of miss it. Not like this year wasn't bomb, too. It totally was. I just feel like I'm growing up too fast. And it really scares me. When I said this to my friend Bea she said it just made her excited. She's ready to grow up and go away from her mom. Her mom's nice, but sometimes isn't. Just like all parents, I suppose. But I'm not ready to grow up. Not yet. There's so many more things I wish I could do.

I was sitting outside by the pool and I kept remembering when Cyndi and me would sit outside there all day in the Summer. We wouldn't move at all. Just sit there and hang out and play. Now she's gone. I mean, not gone just not there. She doesn't live here anymore. I miss it.

It really just makes me want to cry and laugh and scream and punch someone and hug someone all at the same time. I really, really hate that feeling.

Anyways.

Today was the last day of school. ((Finally.))

Summer should rock.
Yup.

"Bea is my new favorite friend."

Sun, 01 Apr 2007 07:02:33 GMT

So, adding on to my last post about my amazingly amazing week I am going to talk about the weekend.

Friday during school was pretty low-key. Science we had a sub, so there wasn't much work to do. Then in World Geo...um...We did something. OH YEAH! We watched a documentary. That's right! xD And then fifth period was gym and we just played pickleball 'n' stuff. Then after school me and Bea went to her place, dropped our stuff off and got on the bus.

So we took the bus to the transfer station and got Starbucks. =3 Then we took another bus to the mall. We went to J.C. Penny's and Bea put a swimsuit on hold. Then we went to Game Stop, but the cool guy wasn't there! So I described him to another guy who was working there, and he was like "Uh huh, he still working here." So I told him to tell him that "The crazy chick with brown hair says 'hi.'" xDD

Then we went into Nordstroms and got our makeup done. This girl, I think her name was Addie or something, did it. She was really cool. And I got soft colors and Bea got blues. And then Bea bought some makeup. We got more coffe at eBar and then left to another store.

Then we went into Hot Topic. I asked the salesguy to take down this cute top/jacket combo, and he did and then opened a changing room. Bea tried on pants and I tried it on, but it was a little too small. So then I asked the same guy if they had it in an extra large, and he said yeah and I was like "Yay! In the large my fat hangs out" and he said "Pshft." Hahah. And I talked about how I wanted to work there when I turned sixteen and he said it was hard to get a job because so many people wanted it. And then I told him I liked his lower lip piercing and that not a lot of guys could pull it off and he said he'd had it for ten years and couldn't imagine not wearing it. And then I bought the clothes and Bea bought her pants.

The lady in Payless said she was jealous of my nose ring. xP And I talked to a three-year-old about how cool Spiderman was, because he was getting a Spiderman backpack, and he said he like Superman better. Pssshhhhhfttt, no wayszzz. And then the saleslady said I looked familiar and that I looked seventeen. O.o; That's the second person this month!

After that it was...Some store that I don't remember. xP We looked around and Bea goes "OOH! Underwear!" Hahah. So she looked through them. And it was four for $18. Then she told me her preference of G-Strings over thongs. And she bought two of 'em and then two of them for me. The salesperson was a guy and he goes "You know it's a final sale." And we started cracking up and nodded, joking about how gross it would be to buy a used pair of underwear.

Then we got more Starbucks while waiting for my mom to pick us up.

When we took Bea home, my mom was like "Bea is my new favorite friend." xDDD! It was amazing.

Then today [[Saturday]] me and my mom watched The Terminator. (She just bought the trilogy.) And I just kind of hung out. Allison and Justin went shopping with Allie's eleven hundred paycheck and came back with a new purse Allison had wanted down from $600 to $300, some games, new bras, pants, and a new TV. xDD

So yeah. =] Exciting.

((It makes me think of HG. xD))

You've got this new head filled up with smoke
And I've got my veins all tangled close
To the jukebox bars you frequent
The safest place to ~~hide~~
A long night spent with your most obvious weakness
You start shaking at the thought you are everything I want
'Cause you are everything I'm not

And we lay, we lay together just not
Too close, too close (How close is close enough?)
We lay, we lay together just not
Too close, too close

I just wanna break you down so badly
Well I trip over everything you say
I just wanna break you down so badly
In the worst way

My inarticulate store bought hangover hobby kit, it talks
It says, "You, oh, you are so cool."
Scissor shaped across the bed, you are red, violent red
You hollow out my hungry eyes
You hollow out my hungry eyes

And we lay, we lay together just not
Too close, too close (How close is close enough?)
We lay, we lay together just not
Too close, too close

I just wanna break you down so badly
Well I trip over everything you say
I just wanna break you down so badly
In the worst way

I just wanna break you down so badly
Well I trip over everything you say
I just wanna break you down so badly
In the worst way (worst way)

I'm gonna make damn sure that you can't ever leave
No, you won't ever get too far from me
You won't ever get too far from me
I'll make damn sure that you ~~can't~~ ever leave
No, you won't ever get too far from me
You won't ever get too far from me
You won't ever get too far from me
You won't ever get too far...

I just wanna break you down so badly
Well I trip over everything you say
I just wanna break you down so badly
In the worst way (worst way)

I'm gonna make damn sure
I just wanna break you down so badly
I just wanna break you down so badly (damn sure)
In the worst way (worst way)

I like fun weeks. :B

Fri, 30 Mar 2007 01:27:00 GMT

This week was really fun, hence the title of my entry. xD

On Monday, I was just energetic the whole day and it was all sunny and nice.

Then on Tuesday I went over to Bea's house. We hung out for a while and then went to Starbucks. It was so fun. We were talking about Aaron, the guy Bea likes and Erik's brother, and she kept looking behind her like he was going to show up or something. And then like ten minutes later, I SAW HIM! I flipped out, I was like "BEA LOOK! IT'S AARON!" and we went out and stalked him in the QFC. Hahah.

Then yesterday, Wednesday, HG sat next to me on the bus. Okay, not next to me exactly, but across the aisle, and he usually sits near the back, and he hasn't ridden the bus in ages. So anyways, it was exciting for me. For lunch me, Bea and Erik went over to Erik's house for lunch. And we were late back to school, so his mom wrote us notes. xDDD; And then after school all three of us went down to the beach and hung out. THE CROWS ATE MY ENTIRE NEW BOX OF NILLA WAFERS! D:< Stupid fucking crows.

And today HG sat behind me. xD; ((Maybe tomorrow he'll sit next to me. xDD Hahah.)) But Alex started smoking. D: Stupid boy, I won't let him.

Okayso, during sixth period ((English)) my teacher, Ms. Bemis, who's like my favorite teacher, asked me to come out into the hall. And I was kind of nervous, not sure why I was being called out to the hall, right? Anyways, she said she was wondering if I talked to Ms. Torres ((Dean of Students)) about what I wrote about in my English journal. See, the topic was write about a time when soemone hurt your feelings. And I wrote about the time when I was in seventh grade or something and Bailee told Zach to ask me out to see if I was a lesbian or not, and it was all this guy I HATED's idea. x_x; And I kind of chuckled, and told her it was a while ago and she asked if it was still going on. And I said that it had only happened once this year, when I stood up for Erik. Whenever we go through th hall in the 100s building to go to lunch or whatever, the kids ((Dylan's posse)) call Erik's name and throw trash at him and try to trip him, so we went to Ms. Torres and told her about it.

And then after class, I talked to Alex again. And he was all "I'm gonna give Dereck some money to buy me some cigarettes." And then I go "No you're not."
"Yes I am."
"No you're not."
"Yes I am."
"NO YOU'RE NOT!"
"-gets on the bus- YES I AM!"
"NOOOOO YOU'RE NOOOT! -gets funny looks-"
"-faintly- Yes I am!!!"

xD
What a weirdo.

My mom gave me sixty bucks and tomorrow me and Bea are taking the bus down to Alderwood mall to go SHOPPING! :B Maybe the Game Stop guy will be there.

So. Yeah. =]

Expo '86

Thu, 15 Mar 2007 19:01:51 GMT

Sometimes I think this cycle never ends
We slide from top to bottom and we turn and climb again
And it seems by the time that i have figured what it's worth
The squeaking of our skin against the steel has gotten worse.

But if I move my place in line I'll lose.
And i have waited, the anticipation's got me glued.

I am waiting for something to go wrong.
I am waiting for familiar resolve.

Sometimes it seems that I don't have the skills to recollect
The twists and turns of plots that turned us from lovers to friends
I'm thinking I should take that volume back up off the shelf
And crack it's weary spine and read to help remind myself

But if I move my place in line i'll lose.
And I have waited, the anticipation's got me glued.

I am waiting for something to wrong
I am waiting for familiar resolve
I am waiting for another repeat
Another diet fed by crippling defeat
And i am waiting for that sense of relief
I am waiting for you to flee the scene
As if you held in your hand the smoking gun
And on the floor lay the one you said you loved.

And it's strange
They are basically the same
So i don't ask names anymore.

Sometimes I think this cycle never ends
We slide from top to bottom and we turn and climb again
And it seems by the time that i have figured what it's worth
The squeaking of our skin against the steel has gotten worse.

The squeaking of our skin against the steel has gotten worse
The squeaking of our skin against the steel has gotten worse

I love Deathcab.
<3

It's not Thursday...Is it?

Thu, 08 Mar 2007 18:54:22 GMT

This week has been one of the best weeks ever.

I got away with skipping sixth with James. (Not something I'll do again, probably.)
I got my nose pierced by a really nice guy.
My mom figured out a way that she could get me a car when I'm seventeen.
I went out to eat twice this week.
I saw my mom and sister.
HG rode the bus. =]
And classes haven't been that boring.
((Except for Math. xD;))

Yay for fun weeks!!
It's been going by really fast. I can't believe it's already Thursday. Tomorrow's Friday and then it's the WEEKEND!!!!

I had a crazy dream.
I had a dream that I was at the mall with Ginae, and we saw Sarah, James, Erik and HG there. xD;
And I had another really weird dream that is hard to describe, really. But it was even weirder.

W00t!

You're an afro one-hair!

Mon, 05 Mar 2007 05:02:17 GMT

On Thursday we had no school because of SNOW!!! :D It was amazing.

On Friday it felt like Thursday. xD; Okay. So the mains points of Friday:
First period all we did was take notes.

Then during STAR, oh wow. x_x; Well, I hung out with James. And then we were walking over to class with Ginae and Ian and I saw Evan...x_x; We both locked eye contact and stopped smiling and then dropped our heads. It was really awkward. x_x;;;;;;;; And then I had to go the other way for class, but James kept pulling me back, saying I had to walk with him. xD;

And then in World Geo, we took notes on Daoism, Buddhism, and Confuciast. Then we did skits. xD; I played a river. Ahahah. I stood up and went "fshhhhh." And at the end my teacher handed candy to the people he liked, and then he looks at me and goes "And I liked the inspiring river" and hands me candy. xD And a kid in my group said "You gave HER one and not ME?! That's sexism!" And Mr. Hunter goes "No, it's favortism." Ahahahah! He's like the coolest teacher ever.

Then lunch I hung out in the GSA room. In Washington a bill was just passed for Domestic Rights for homosexual which allows rights to couples like hospital visitation, inheritence, and other things that are n marriage and the only difference from marriage is like a marriage license and some financial things. ^^!

In PE we played volleyball. It was actually pretty fun. Except for the fact that this kid Mika (I think that's how you spell it. Pronounced Mike-uh) accidently hit me in the face with a volleyball. x_x; He was like "Oh sorry! Lauren, are you okay?" And I was. I've seen this kid Shakeeb get a bloody nose from a dodgeball, so at least nothing bled. xP

I went over to Shannon's and just kinda hung out.

Then on Saturday we got donuts and then I went over to Charisse's for her birthday. It was just her, me, and Ginae. First we went to Charisse's family's Greek restaurant. We had good food. I actually tried this squid stuff, and liked it! xDD; And then we took a cab back to her place.

We watched Pokemon movies, and there was this one girl and Charisse goes "It looks like she has an afro." And Ginae says "Lookit how it moves. It's like one big hair." xDDD So we called her Afro One-Hair. Hahah. And there was Penis Head and Penis Dreads, too. We all agreed the oldschool Pokemon was way better.

And we watched Another Gay Movie, which was really weird. x_x; And it showed a lot of butt, so we were like "GOD Charisse, why'd you rent a gay porno?!" xDDD

And we played the game Whaked! Which was really weird, but so much fun! And then Ginae fell asleep and me and Charisse stayed up playing other fighting games. We stayed up until 8 AM. Then Ginae woke up and we went to sleep until 2 PM.

By that time Ginae was gone. And then a little later my mom came and picked me up. But it was a lot of fun. =]

Yeah.

And today MY MOM SAID I COULD GET MY NOSE PIERCED!!!!!!! IT WAS THE BESTEST! =]]]]]]]] I'm so excited! ~~And I just can't hide it. I'm about to lose control and I think I like it!~~

So...

How was your weekend?

You're everyday, typical, angsty teen

Tue, 13 Feb 2007 03:42:30 GMT

Lately I've been mad.
Or sad.
It's really pisses me off.
D:<

Right now it's because I kinda feel like a loner.
I never actually talk to people about my problems.
I never really go out on the weekend with friends.
And sometimes, I just feel like my friends aren't really my friends. I try to tell myself that I'm just being paranoid, but I just can't shake the feeling.

I never used to be shy. But now I feel like I'm in a shell, and I just can't make new friends. I don't know how to. And I'm not friends with Simonne anymore. And abkdanfionifndsnfbalararhghghghhrif.

Not to mention the fact that I feel like I caused this big fight between Ginae and Charisse. Last week we had this Mock Wedding thing in GSA. It was so much fun! Anyways, Charisse and Ginae were going to get married, and Ginae didn't show up. Charrise asked me why and I blurted "I think that she and James went to James' house to go smoke pot." Charisse's eyes got all big and she got so mad. And now they're in this huge fight and it's all my fault.

And I never see Sarah.
I see her like once every three months.
Even less then that.

And the saddest part is I feel like my only friends are my mom and sister. They're the only ones I have here who listen to me. Who I see almost every single day. Who I have fun with on the weekends.

Whatever. It won't matter. Three to four years from now, I'll be in College. It won't matter. I'll become a lawyer/writer and live my life. Allison's only real friends are Justin's friends anyways. Whatever. It won't matter. It doesn't matter.

I think I want to dye two streaks in the front of my hair red. Not permanately, but just to see if I like it.

Boys suck.
Evan has way too much hot for one guy to handle.
And he walks right by me.
Yeah.
I'm just
"The fat chick in the leather jacket."

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Good night.
=]

Sat, 10 Feb 2007 00:19:02 GMT

What Lauren Means

L is for Lovable

A is for Astounding

U is for Unusual

R is for Revolutionary

E is for Extraordinary

N is for Naive

What Does Your Name Mean?


	Dear Cupid, This year, I've had my ups and downs in the love department.
I got drunk at a party and ran around naked and Knives_daggers still makes fun of me. Likewoah_x bought me some chocolate truffles... which I re-gifted to Gingerluvsdally. I went to the movies with Gentledeer319 and they tried to do the whole yawn and arm around the shoulder bit.
So, as you can see, it's been a hectic year. Can you please make Servantofgaara fall in love with me this Valentine's day? Sincerely,

Take this Quiz at QuizGalaxy.com
( or, take the 'adult' version at QuizUniverse.com )

The Candy Heart You Should Give Is:

To: Evan

From: Lauren

What Candy Heart Should You Give?

An actual entry

Thu, 25 Jan 2007 18:25:32 GMT

I haven't really been updating actual entries. So I thought I'd do just that while I have time in Math class.

On Tuesday I went over to Shannon's. Me and Allison hung out, playing Justin's Wii and watching Inuyasha. Anyways, we went to Subway, and mom wouldn't buy me a .39 cent cookie. Whatever. When she was going to take me home, I hear her tell Allison she'll give her 50-100 dollars on books. So when we're walking down the hall and I get really mad. I tell her that she always buys Allison everything. And she goes off about how it's not about "stuff." I agreed, and told her it was the feeling behind the stuff. She makes me so mad sometimes. So she's driving me home and I yelled at her, telling her that she does always get Allison everything. She bought her a car, a cat, a coat, a bed, etc. Then she starts crying. That just made me feel worse, like I was being overdramatic, and I started feeling guilty. I was so relieved when I got home. I don't like being around her anymore. She always finds a way to make me feel bad about something. Like I said that I wanted to dye the ends of my hair red or something and she said that I'd look like trailer trash. ...
...
...
Most of my friends have dyed hair. I got really mad. She was like "It was just an opinion." Well she didn't have to be a fucking bitch about it.

Yesterday (I think it was, anyways) I saw HG get off to school on another bus. xD; I think he knows I'm ~~stalking him~~ ~~following him~~ errr...uh...yeah. I hate guys. I hate them. D: It's like I told James, God just wants me to grow up to be one of those old ladies that gets on the Animal Planet for having so many damn cats to fill the empty hole in her life.

But on a happier note.
I got the highest score on my Spanish exam.
^-^
I just took my Math exam, and I think I did okay. But it was so cool.
My Spanish teacher was like, since I got the highest score (71/80) she'd make the test out of 71 points. Which means I got 100%! ^^ W00t.

Oh! I just remembered.
My sister was telling me about how she was singing a Christmas carol with Justin's name in it.
"On the first day of Justin my Justin gave to me a Justin in a Justin tree.
On the second day of Justin my Justin gave to me two Justin Justins and a Justin in a Justin tree."
And so he sang one to her, but she couldn't remember which ones, so I started singing jingle bells.
"Allie bells. Allie bells. Allie all the Allie."
And she looks at me and goes "THat could be dirty."
"How so?"
"Oh what fun it is to ride...."
Hahahahahahah.
xD

So um.
Hi.
How are you?
-listens intently-
That's good/bad.
I'm glad/sorry you feel like that.

You Are 58% Borderline

You have some symptoms of borderline personality disorder.

If you feel like you're more than a little dramatic, you may want to investigate further.

Do You Have a Borderline Personality?

Your Love Type: ESTP

The Doer

In love, you are charming, and known for sweeping people off their feet.

For you, sex is fun and a great way to be in the moment with someone.

Overall, you are witty, generous, and flirty.

However, you tend to ignore conflict and get bored with people easily.

Best matches: ISFJ or ISTJ

What's Your Love Type?

m00 (MCR lyrics I've added comments to)

Tue, 23 Jan 2007 22:10:47 GMT

Well it rains and it pours
When you're out on your own
If I crash on the couch
Can I sleep in my clothes? <---Who sleeps on the couch in their pajamas? xD
'Cause I've spent the night dancing
I'm drunk, I suppose <---Best way to go dancing. =B
If it looks like I'm laughing
I'm really just asking to leave

This alone, you're in time for the show
You're the one that I need
I'm the one that you loathe <---Ain't that always how it works out?
You can watch me corrode like a beast in repose
'Cause I love all the poison
Away with the boys in the band

I've really been on a bender and it shows
So why don't you blow me a kiss before she goes?

Give me a shot to remember
And you can take all the pain away from me
A kiss and I will surrender
The sharpest lives are the deadliest to lead
A light to burn all the empires
So bright the sun is ashamed to rise and be
In love with all of these vampires
So you can leave like the sane abandoned me

There's a place in the dark where the animals go
You can take off your skin in the cannibal glow <---o.o;;;
Juliet loves the beat and the lust it commands
Drop the dagger and lather the blood on your hands, Romeo

I've really been on a bender and it shows
So why don't you blow me a kiss before she goes?

Give me a shot to remember
And you can take all the pain away from me
A kiss and I will surrender
The sharpest lives are the deadliest to lead
A light to burn all the empires
So bright the sun is ashamed to rise and be
In love with all of these vampires
So you can leave like the sane abandoned me
[x2]

Mama, we all go to hell.
Mama, we all go to hell.
I'm writing this letter and wishing you well,
Mama, we all go to hell.

Oh, well, now,
Mama, we're all gonna die.
Mama, we're all gonna die.
Stop asking me questions, I'd hate to see you cry,
Mama, we're all gonna die.

And when we go don't blame us, yeah.
We'll let the fires just bathe us, yeah.
You made us, oh, so famous.
We'll never let you go.
And when you go don't return to me my love. <---But why not? D:

Mama, we're all full of lies.
Mama, we're meant for the flies.
And right now they're building a coffin your size,
Mama, we're all full of lies.

Well Mother, what the war did to my legs and to my tongue,
You should've raised a baby girl,
I should've been a better son.
If you could coddle the infection
They can amputate at once.
You should've been,
I could have been a better son.

And when we go don't blame us, yeah.
We'll let the fires just bathe us, yeah.
You made us, oh, so famous.
We'll never let you go.

She said: "You ain't no son of mine
For what you've done they're gonna find
A place for you
And just you mind your manners when you go.
And when you go, don't return to me, my love."
That's right.

Mama, we all go to hell.
Mama, we all go to hell.
It's really quite pleasant
Except for the smell,
Mama, we all go to hell.

2 - 3 - 4
Mama! Mama! Mama! Ohhh!
Mama! Mama! Mama! Ma...

[Liza Minelli:] And if you would call me your sweetheart,
I'd maybe then sing you a song

[Gerard Way:] But there's shit that I've done with this fuck of a gun,
You would cry out your eyes all along.

We're damned after all.
Through fortune and flame we fall.
And if you can stay then I'll show you the way,
To return from the ashes you call.

We all carry on (We all carry on)
When our brothers in arms are gone (When our brothers in arms are gone)
So raise your glass high
For tomorrow we die,
And return from the ashes you call.

They're gonna clean up your looks
With all the lies in the books
To make a citizen out of you
Because they sleep with a gun
And keep an eye on you, son
So they can watch all the things you do

Because the drugs never work
They're gonna give you a smirk
'Cause they got methods of keeping you clean
They're gonna rip up your heads,
Your aspirations to shreds
Another cog in the murder machine

They said all teenagers scare the living shit out of me
They could care less as long as someone'll bleed <---xD; Isn't it true though? Maybe not for all. But for maybe 55% of the population...
So darken your clothes or strike a violent pose
Maybe they'll leave you alone, but not me

The boys and girls in the clique
The awful names that they stick
You're never gonna fit in much, kid
But if you're troubled and hurt
What you got under your shirt
Will make them pay for the things that they did

They said all teenagers scare the living shit out of me
They could care less as long as someone'll bleed
So darken your clothes or strike a violent pose
Maybe they'll leave you alone, but not me

Ohhh yeah!

They said all teenagers scare the living shit out of me
They could care less as long as someone'll bleed
So darken your clothes or strike a violent pose
Maybe they'll leave you alone, but not me

All together now!

Teenagers scare the living shit out of me
They could care less as long as someone'll bleed
So darken your clothes or strike a violent pose
Maybe they'll leave you alone, but not me
[x2]

Well I was there on the day
They sold the cause for the queen,
And when the lights all went out
We watched our lives on the screen.
I hate the ending myself,
But it started with an alright scene. <---That's how it always is. Or the opposite.

It was the roar of the crowd
That gave me heartache to sing.
It was a lie when they smiled
And said, "you won't feel a thing"
And as we ran from the cops
We laughed so hard it would sting

Yeah yeah, oh

If I'm so wrong (so wrong, so wrong)
How can you listen all night long? (night long, night long)
Now will it matter after I'm gone?
Because you never learn a goddamned thing.

You're just a sad song with nothing to say <---That's how all songs nowadays. And most people.
About a life long wait for a hospital stay
And if you think that I'm wrong,
This never meant nothing to ya

I spent my high school career
Spit on and shoved to agree <---But I'll never agree. =]
So I could watch all my heroes
Sell a car on tv
Bring out the old guillotine
We'll show 'em what we all mean.

Yeah yeah, oh

If I'm so wrong (so wrong, so wrong)
How can you listen all night long? (night long, night long)
Now will it matter long after I'm gone?
Because you never learn a goddamned thing.

You're just a sad song with nothing to say
About a life long wait for a hospital stay
And if you think that I'm wrong,
This never meant nothing to ya

So go, go away, just go, run away.
But where did you run to? And where did you hide?
Go find another way, price you pay

Woah, Woah, Woah, Woah, Woah, Woah

You're just a sad song with nothing to say
About a life long wait for a hospital stay
And if you think that I'm wrong,
This never meant nothing to ya, come on

You're just a sad song with nothing to say
About a life long wait for a hospital stay
And if you think that I'm wrong,
This never meant nothing to ya

At all, at all, at all, at all

Now I know
That I can't make you stay
But where's your heart? <---...
But where's your heart?
But where's your...

And I know
There's nothing I could say
To change that part <---......
To change that part
To change...

So many
Bright lights, they cast a shadow
But can I speak?
Well is it hard understanding
I'm incomplete
A life that's so demanding
I get so weak
A love that's so demanding
I can't speak

I am not afraid to keep on living
I am not afraid to walk this world alone
Honey if you stay, I'll be forgiven
Nothing you can say can stop me going home

Can you see
My eyes are shining bright
Cause I'm out here
On the other side
Of a jet black hotel mirror
And I'm so weak
Is it hard understanding
I'm incomplete
A love that's so demanding
I get weak

I am not afraid to keep on living
I am not afraid to walk this world alone
Honey if you stay, I'll be forgiven
Nothing you can say can stop me going home

I am not afraid to keep on living
I am not afraid to walk this world alone
Honey if you stay, I'll be forgiven
Nothing you can say can stop me going home

These bright lights have always blinded me
These bright lights have always blinded me
I say

I see you lying next to me
With words I thought I'd never speak <---I interpret this song in two ways. xD;
Awake and unafraid
Asleep or dead

(How can I see, I see you lying) 'Cause I see you lying next to me
(How can I see, I see you lying) With words I thought I'd never speak
(How can I see, I see you lying) Awake and unafraid
(How can I see, I see you lying) Asleep or dead

'Cause I see you lying next to me
With words I thought I'd never speak
Awake and unafraid
Asleep or dead

'Cause I see you lying next to me
With words I thought I'd never speak
Awake and unafraid
Asleep or dead

I am not afraid to keep on living
I am not afraid to walk this world alone
(Or dead)
Honey if you stay, I'll be forgiven
Nothing you can say can stop me going home
(Or dead)
I am not afraid to keep on living
I am not afraid to walk this world alone
(Or dead)
Honey if you stay, I'll be forgiven
Nothing you can say can stop me going home
(Or dead)
I am not afraid to keep on living
I am not afraid to walk this world alone
(Or dead)
Honey if you stay, I'll be forgiven
Nothing you can say can stop me going home

If I had to order those songs from favorite....
It would be hard.
But I'd do it like this:
1. Famous Last Words
2. Disenchanted
And number three...
3. Mama/The Sharpest Lives/Teenagers.
xD
I can't choose!

Commet me with the name of your favorite band.
And your favorite song of theirs.
<3 I'll check it out.

So, anyways.
I haven't been online in a while.
I've been either busy or just too lazy. xP
Yesterday I had some sort of breakdown.
Lately I've been feeling kind of down.
I keep comparing myself to Allison, my sister. It just feels like everything, she either has it, had it first, did it first or did it better.
And she's one of those blonde hair blue eyed girls. The one that girls oogle over. D:
But I love her. I mean, she's my sister. And she's really fun to hang out with. We have a bunch of Inuyasha jokes. Hahah.
"You need to eat more FIBER!"
"IRON REAVER SOUL STEALER!"
"...I don't suppose I can have them both?"
"Yes. Biiiiig sit."
Hahah.
Anyways.
I just kind of cried.
But I feel better now. ^-^

I took my Spanish final today. I think I did okay. x_X; I have the rest of my finals on Thursday/Friday.
The one I'm most nervous about it Math. And World Geo.

Well, the laptop's going out, and I didn't bring my charger to school. So later days!

I hate snow

Wed, 17 Jan 2007 04:48:07 GMT

Dude!
I went to one day of school last week.
Monday.
And then I took two sick days because I felt like shit. (Feel better now, but still sick.) And then on Thursday/Friday there were snow days! Then we had Monday off for MLK Jr. day. And then today and yesterday, we had more snow days!
:D

On Friday I walked up this bigass hill...in the fucking snow...to Starbucks. Evan wasn't there, but I figured that. So I ludged all the way to Fred Meyer to meet my sister. She couldn't get down to my house to pick me up because a road was closed. So I had to walk. x_x It took me like an hour. My exercise for the year.

Allison (my sister) has gotten me into Inuyasha. She has a few of the DVDs and four movies. We've watched them all. "You need more FIBER! -smacks with a tree-" xD; We'll say random funny lines to each other during the day when we see each other. I like the part where this girl gets possessed and she's floating around the room and the lady gasps and goes "SHE MOVED!" We cracked up. No shit! Apparently, the actual translation is "She's FLOATING!" which makes a lot more sense.

I kind of feel bad. I think God wants me to grow up into one of those fifty year old ladies who gets shown on Animal Planet because she has like a hundred and fifty cats to try and fill the empty hole she received from having no husband, or boyfriend, or significant other. Anyways, last night, or maybe the night before, I found this cool site. http://www.facade.com/ I did the tarot reading, biblomancy, coin flip and runes. They all said I'd be in a relashonship soon. But I'm still feeling discouraged. Though they were right about Choco being on soon. =]! She was on today. But she's still grounded.

Choco is actually Sheba. She and I roleplay over Neopets. ((Heck yes!)) I nicknamed her Choco on account she loves chocolate milk. (And who doesn't?) And she nicknamed me Ketchup...beause....she's insane. xD Anyways, she got grounded because she shouted another obscenity at her mother. x_x; She broke into the password protected computer to tell me she's still grounded, but when her mom's out she can get on. xD Hahah.

I kind of feel like I'm drifting from some of my friends.
Though, I've also noticed that I tend to be paranoid about....things.
A lot of things.
xD

I want to throw a party.
Or go to a movie.
Or to Capitol Hill.
With friends.
A lot of friends.
Maybe I'll have a house party.
Parrrrr-tay.

I'm sick of the snow.
While I like having have no school, I kind of miss human contact. xD;

It's almost Sarah's birthday! Her party's on the 26th. Since she's turning sixteen I made her an official "I never want to grow up/I'm staying a kid forever" gift bag. I took toys like a magic 8 ball a Green Eggs and ham book, a little puppy action figure, a picture of me and her, cookies, candy, a Batman yo-yo, and other things kids like and stuck it all in a winged Tinkerbell backpack. :D

Anyways.
yeah.
=]
Smile!

It's been a while

Wed, 10 Jan 2007 23:14:05 GMT

You Are More Yin

Feminine

Devoted

Forgiving

Fall

Winter

Afternoon

Moon

Time

Passive

Metal

Honey

Are You More Yin or Yang?

Libra - Your Love Profile

Your positive traits:

You are open minded enough to date outside your typical "type" ... successfully!

You are diplomatic - and likely to end a fight instead of dragging things out.

You are easily loyal and faithful, but only for the right person.

Your negative traits:

You're a bit gullible, and partners take advantage of you. You still may not know it.

You find it difficult to decide where to go to dinner, what movie to watch, who to date...

You have to be in a relationship, or else you just don't feel like yourself.

Your ideal partner:

A smooth talker who enjoys socializing as much as you to.

Someone classy and cultured who knows which wine to order with dinner.

Is beautiful to you - although not necessarily attractive in the traditional sense.

Your dating style:

Romantic. If your date comes bearing flowers, wine, and poetry... well, your heart soars.

Your seduction style:

Giving. Your lover's pleasure is as important as your own.

Soft and sensual - you don't like anything to be rough.

Extravagant ... your fantasy involves staying at a five star hotel with your love.

Tips for the future:

Don't be so quick to compromise in relationships - and you'll get taken advantage of yes.

Try being single for a while. Seems impossible, but you'll learn so much about yourself from doing so.

Make some decisions about your romantic life, right now. You'll be happy that you did.

Best color to attract mate: Green

Best day for a date: Wednesday

What's Your Love Profile?

I haven't posted in a while. There really hasn't been anyone on to read.
If you ARE reading this, you should go my my outsiders_rate group and vote on the new members. xD;

So...
I have a date with HG this Friday.
:D I'm excited.

Today and yesterday I didn't go to school. I'm sick. D: Though I feel a lot better then I did yesterday. My head pounded when I walked. x_x;

Ummm...
Yeah.
:B

Bored.

Tue, 05 Dec 2006 22:21:40 GMT

I'm bored in English.
Yup.
No one's ever on livejournal anymore. D:
I only go on to see communities and shit.
I don't actually ever post in my own journal. Well, except for now while I'm bored in English. Eight more minutes. Quinton kept throwing things at me when I was trying to sleep. u_u

Today during lunch, I was laughing so much. I'm not even sure I remember it all. It was fun. xP

Still eight minutes. Wait! Seven now. xD;

Urghness. I am so tired. I stayed up late last night reading this really good book called Kerosene by Chris Wooding. You should read it. ^^;

It was great. The kid who sits in front of me, Sam, kept hitting buttons on my CD player and my teacher goes "Stop it! Stop bugging her. You're bugging me because you're bugging her." xDD;

Wow.

Amazering.

Anyways.

Laters.

You Were Born Under:

Your most comfortable inside your head - and often daydream the day away.

You have an artistic temperament that makes you seem creative to some, eccentric to others.

You avoid conflict at all costs, and you have a difficult time with relationships.

Attractive and with good manners, you tend to shine in social situations.

You are most compatible with a Pig or Rabbit.

What Year Were You Born Under?

Hahah, wow, that's really true!

You Should Have Been Born Under:

What Year Should You Have Been Born Under?

Your 1996 Theme Song Is: Macarena by Los Del Rio

When I dance they call me macarena

And the boys, they say that I'm buena

They all want me, they can't have me

So they all come and dance beside me

What's Your 1996 Theme Song?

You Are 59% Peaceful

In general, you think the world's a pretty great place - and you're happy to be a part of it.

Sometimes you struggle with life, but who doesn't?

You are quite level headed, though you have more inner angst than you'd like.

How Peaceful Are You?

Smells, maturity, and bubblegum

Sat, 02 Dec 2006 21:49:23 GMT

Your Fragrance Profile

The best calming fragrance: jasmine

The best fragrance for everyday wear: sandalwood

The best fragrance to boost your sex appeal: rose

The best fragrance for energy: peppermint

What's Your Fragrance Profile?

You Are Somewhat Mature

You definitely act like an adult sometimes, but a big part of you is still a kid at heart.

While your immature side is definitely fun, you're going to have to grow up sooner or later.

Are You Immature?

Snoooooow daaaaays

Wed, 29 Nov 2006 14:56:24 GMT

So this is my second snow day in a row. ^-^ And on Monday we had a 1 1/2 hour delay and still got out at 1:20! :D It's awesome.

So an update.
Well, I always think of things to write, and then I get here and I can never think of anything. D:

Um.....

MORP!

Eyes.

Tue, 14 Nov 2006 23:02:20 GMT

HG has grey eyes.
Well, greyish-blue, but more grey.

And yes.
I was actually close enough to witness this.
He sat next to me on the bus.
Well, might as well have.

See, in the afternoon everyone rides our bus. We have three to a seat in nearly every seat. Anyways, I hear HG say to his a couple of his friends "Let sit in the front with the cool kids." My heart leapt. That's where I sit. Anyways, he sat next to Kirsten and I sat on the seat opposite him. But we were so close, because I was on the end of a seat with three people, so my legs were out in the aisle.

Anyways, his friends told me to give the busdriver a tape to play. xD It was like Batman or something. I did so, and she said she would play it, but the new bus (her bus broke down this morning) had no tape player.

Then she talked about how we were lucky to get a newer bus and I said "But it still has no tape player" and HG shook his head in disappointment.

I almost tod him I liked his eyes, but by the time I mustered up the courage it was time to get off, and while he gets off their, too, I didn't want to say it in front of his friends. x_x; (One of his friends smokes. I wonder if he does, too...)

...
...
...
I'm not a stalker!!!
>_<

Anhyways, continuing on...
James said he'd give me a mambo if I smoke some weed.
I said no.
Because even if I was tempted just a little bit, I have the rep for being anti-drug, and yeah.

Thu, 09 Nov 2006 21:24:22 GMT

Your Expression Number is 7

Very intelligent, you are usually thinking, introspecting, or analyzing.

You have a good mind, and you are especially good at finding out the truth.

Very little ever escapes your observation and deep understanding.

You tend to obsess over wisdom and hidden truths.

You are likely to become a authority on any subject you undertake.

Operating on a different wavelength, most people don't know you that well.

Very logical and rational, at times you tend to lack emotion.

So much so, that you often have times coping with emotional situations.

You are not very adaptable - you may tend to be overly critical at times.

What's Your Expression Number?

La di da

Tue, 07 Nov 2006 21:38:20 GMT

Yesterday afternoon the hot guy (from now on, HG) nodded at me. xD I told him I liked his jacket and he nodded. Ginae laughed when I told her and said "And tomorrow he'll say thanks. Then the next day he'll say thank you. And then if he's not scared off he'll say thank you Lauren." xDD; Hahah.

Man, I'm bored. I dun feel like taking notes in English, so I'm writing this. Nice, huh? I am sooooooooo tired. I could fall asleep right now. RIGHT NOOOOOOWWWW! x_x; Eheh.

Right now I'm reading a book called The Torn Skirt by Rebecca Godfrey. (I think.) On the back of it, it says "Like S.E. Hinton's Outsiders except about girls." xD I'm not too sure it is. I mean, I suppose the writing style is similar. Both the characters are a little bit naive, but the plot's pretty different. Anyways, it's good and you should read it.

Today James did his homework and was early to class and I didn't do my homework and was late! O.o THE APOCOLYPSE! -scream- He said that soon he'd stop doing drugs and I'd start. --; Ha ha. -sarcasm- I dunno thought, maybe I'd like that better.

I'm so hungry. x_x; Hungry and tired. And bored. Hahah. Blargh is so cooler than uber. Sorry. End of discussion.

I might go to this concert called Deck the Halls Ball. The bands playing are Taking Back Sunday, My Chemical Romance, Snow Patrol, Angels N Airwaves, The Shins, Gnarls Barkley, Jet and Pete Yorn. Shannon said she'd pay for it. I just need to find someone to go with. x_x; And we need to buy tickets soon. I'll make Sarah go with me. xD;

No one's been updating their livejournal very much anymore. I get so busy/distracted/blargh. xD; But I'm in English, so I thought that I would.

But now I have nothing left to say. Hmm....Oh well.

Ta.

Some random quizzes

Sun, 29 Oct 2006 07:43:15 GMT

Knock yourself out.

You Are Midnight

You are more than a little eccentric, and you're apt to keep very unusual habits.
Whether you're a nightowl, living in a commune, or taking a vow of silence - you like to experiment with your lifestyle.
Expressing your individuality is important to you, and you often lie awake in bed thinking about the world and your place in it.
You enjoy staying home, but that doesn't mean you're a hermit. You also appreciate quality time with family and close friends.

What Time Of Day Are You?

Your Birthdate: October 9

You are a born idealist, with more pet causes than you can count.
You prefer be around others, both when working and while relaxing.
Generous and giving, you believe you can change the world one person at a time.
You're open minded and tolerant. People feel like they can tell you anything.

Your strength: Your go-with-the-flow flexibility

Your weakness: Your flair for the over dramatic

Your power color: Pine green

Your power symbol: Circle

Your power month: September

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

You Are 68% Cynical

You're a full blown cynic... and probably even skeptical of these results.
You have your optimistic moments, but most likely you keep them to yourself.

How Cynical Are You?

What Your Face Says

At first glance, people see you as warm and well-balanced.

Overall, your true self is reserved and logical.

With friends, you seem dramatic, lively, and quick to react.

In love, you seem mysterious and interesting.

In stressful situations, you seem sad and helpless.

What Do People Think Of Your Face?

Your Linguistic Profile:

80% General American English

5% Midwestern

5% Upper Midwestern

5% Yankee

0% Dixie

What Kind of American English Do You Speak?

You Are 57% Angry

Generally, you are not an angry person.
But you're easily frustrated and enraged. You have one heck of a temper.
And because of your anger, you tend to feel resentful and even spiteful.
You already know how to quell your anger. You just need to do it more often.

How Angry Are You?

Your Personality Profile

You are dignified, spiritual, and wise.
Always unsatisfied, you constantly try to better yourself.
You are also a seeker of knowledge and often buried in books.

You tend to be philosophical, looking for the big picture in life.
You dream of inner peace for yourself, your friends, and the world.
A good friend, you always give of yourself first.

The World's Shortest Personality Test

You Are 72% Indie

You're a very indie person, and admit it, you look down a little on people who strive to be normal.
You'll indulge in a little mainstream pop culture every now and then. But for you, anything not indie is a guilty pleasure!

How Indie Are You?

Your Love Number is 2

Of all the numbers, you are the most caring and empathetic lover.
Unselfish and humble, you find it easy to forgive your sweetie's mistakes.
At times, your need to please can be come a bit too needy.
As long as you remain somewhat independent, your relationships are perfectly balanced.

What Is Your Love Number?

Your True Love Is a Capricorn

Why you'll love a Capricorn:

Hard working and driven, a Capricorn will work overtime to win your heart.
Be prepared to get wined and dined, even once you're convince that your Capricorn is the one!

Why a Capricorn will love you:

You don't rush things. You know it will take a while for a Capricorn to trust you, and you can wait.
Social and outgoing, you can introduce normally shy Capricorn to a great circle of friends.

What Sign Is Your True Love?

Your Values Profile

Loyalty:

You value loyalty a fair amount.
You're loyal to your friends... to a point.
But if they cross you, you will reconsider your loyalties.
Staying true to others is important to you, but you also stay true to yourself.

Honesty:

You don't really value honesty.
You do value getting your way, no matter what.
And if a little lying is required to do that, no problem.
A few white lies never hurt anyone (at least, that's what you tell yourself!)

Generosity:

You value generosity a fair amount.
You are all about giving, as long as there's some give and take.
Supportive and kind, you don't mind helping out a friend in need.
But you know when you've given too much. You have no problem saying "no"!

Humility:

You value humility highly.
You have the self-confidence to be happy with who you are.
And you don't need to seek praise to make yourself feel better.
You're very modest, and you're keep the drama factor low.

Tolerance:

You value tolerance highly.
Not only do you enjoy the company of those very different from you...
You do all that you can to seek it out interesting and unique friends.
You think there are many truths in life, and you're open to many of them.

The Five Factor Values Test

You are 60% Libra

How Libra Are You?

Your Brain is 67% Female, 33% Male

Your brain leans female
You think with your heart, not your head
Sweet and considerate, you are a giver
But you're tough enough not to let anyone take advantage of you!

What Gender Is Your Brain?

Your Driving Is is: 47% Male, 53% Female

According to studies, you drive both like a guy and a girl.
This means you're a pretty average driver, with typical quirks.
Occasionally you're frustrated and or a little reckless, but that's the exception - not the norm.

Do You Drive Like a Guy or a Girl?

You Are 24% Capitalist, 76% Socialist

You tend to be quite wary of businesses, especially big business.
While you know that corporations have their place, you tend to support small, locally owned shops.
As far as the rich go, you think they're usually corrupt and immoral.

Are You a Socialist or Capitalist?

In Science

Mon, 23 Oct 2006 19:43:40 GMT

Just like it says. I'm in Science.

Anyways.
I wanna write about my weekend.
SO I'M GONNA! xD;;

Saturday: On Saturday I had to wake up at 10:30 AM. Me and mom picked up my cake at QFC. It was white, with white frosting and chocolate filling. I got a white chocolate mocha at Starbucks. Mmmm, Starbucks. Anyways, then we went back over to Spin Alley.

Natasha was just arriving. (She was early.) We played some of the arcade games. Cyndi came next. She gave me "the poor kids gift" AKA a hug. xDD;; After that Simonne came. x3 Yay! xD; Then....SARAH CAME! Yayayayay! She made me the coolest birthday card ever dude! It said "HAPPY BIRTHDAY!" and it had three pictures on it; one of me and her squinting our faces, one of my with peace fingers, and one of us in 5th and 6th grade in our poodle skirts, hair up and 50's jackets that we wore when we danced to "We Go Togethers" from Greace for athe school talent show.

Then James came. Evonne couldn't go, her step-dad said she couldn't at the last minute. I wasn't sure whether I thought that was good or bad. -shrug- Evonne's nice.

We started bowling. xD; Ginae came late and came on out team. The teams were me, James, Ginae and Sarah and Cyndi, Natasha and Simonne. T'was fun. We ate Simonne's onion rings and Sarah's cheese sticks and James and Giane's shakes. xD;

Then we had cake. Mmmmmmm cake. (Apparently Charisse was too tired to come and Erik....I dunno. xD;) And then I opened presents.

From Natasha I got The Outsiders with the new cover. x3 (I knew what I was getting, too. xD0
From Sarah I got a stuffed animal pig where you can open it's mouth and there's pizza inside! It's name is Pepperoni. xD She also got me a pig that attatches to the ceiling and flies around!! Hahah!
Simonne gave me a funny card and 20 bucks.
James and Ginae promised to get me something. Hahahah!!!

Then we played more arcade games. O.O Fuuuuun!

Then people started leaving.
Me, James, and Ginae went to my house and got Ginae's bike (which had been qthere since Summer) and James took two of my games and left. --;

Then I took a nap. Then me and mom watched half of My Cousin Vinny before Shannon came and picked me up.

We went to the mall! Yaaaay! I got books!!

Then I went to Barnes and Nobel and got more books.
Yay.

Then we went home.
And I watched tv and stuff.
And near the end of Law and Order SVU I hear my mom say "Oh my GOD!"
So I go in.
And she tells me that
My cousin Erin died.

I'm still not sure how yet, hopefully I'll know by today or tomorrow. And the funeral's going to be on Thursday or Friday.

She was 22.
She just got married to the sweetest man.
She just graduated college.
She and her husband were planning on having a baby.
Eric (her husband) found her dead on the floor.
My aunt Nora...
My uncle Barrett...
My cousin Jane...
I cried.

Sunday: I had gone back home and I slept until 2 PM. I woke up, my cold really getting to me and feeling sick. I watched tv, did homework, watched the end of My Cousin Vinny and Tex.
Tex is better as a book, but the movie was okay.

Today: Well, now it's 5th period Health.
I had to stop in Science to work on this thingy mabober.
Which I'm going to fail.
Anyhow.

I feel pretty shitty.

So I went to the doctors, got put on some antibiodics, missed 2nd period and most of 3rd. Went to Math. Then lunch...

At lunch I went with James, Ginae, Simmone and Ana to Ana's house. They were going to go get high. I wanted to tell them about my cousin. Never had a hance. Anyways, I tried to stop them, and when they wouldn't listen, I left.

So I'm just pretty pissed.

Like Charisse said
Doing pot is one thing
But when you ditch your friends to do it...
That's a whole 'nother issue.
Friends shouldn't put pot before friends.
So fuck them.

Yay! 80's dude! xD

Wed, 18 Oct 2006 13:33:08 GMT

	1manshow's Halloween ...

	You will dress up as An 80's guy, despite earlier plans.
	quizgalaxy will get you pumpkin flavored chips
	china4eva will get you Your favorite candy
	kikoateneo410 will get you A long winded love poem
	maniacle_kitten will get you emotional scars
	knives_daggers will get you Some individually wraped razor blades

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